never been in love.

i love. but never been in love.
I get lost in my daydreams far too often. My dreams illustrate the feeling that love brings. Never experienced it. After self-reflection, I have realized that I have never been in love. I do love. I love with my whole heart. I love my family and my friends, quite frankly that's the only love I feel I need. They say, a wise girl kisses but never loves; listens but never believes.

In one of my earliest serious relationships, I realized I did not love him. It wasn't pure because it was focused so much on physical attraction. I remember the first time, he got really close to my ear and whispered 'I love you'. Those words scare me sometimes because they hold such a huge responsibility. After you use those three words, you are out to prove that you would never do anything to hurt or ruin what you have. Ughhh, I felt forced to feel a certain way that I didn't truly feel. But I said it, damn. That lasted for a mere two years.


Young & Stupid.

You grow and you learn to use your vocabulary wiser.